Got the MRI today, wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be, although the last set she did I was getting close to starting to spaz. I held really still though, and closed my eyes and deep breathed and all that. Took 45 minutes. Not sure how I’d to if I had to have a really long – like hours – one though.
Went by the human services office today, applied for food stamps. I also am going to see if I can get help with next month’s rent (until income taxes come in) and help with propane – that is a big one right now *sigh* This will be the third time in my life that I will have been on public assistance. Once was my family right after we left asshole, and the other was when I was homeless and pregnant. I’m not ashamed of it, and I use it like it is supposed to be used, but it is still frustrating. Ah well.
Speaking of asshole, so every year I have to write a letter about why he shouldn’t be paroled. The year before last he was going to go up for his parole hearing but waved at the last minute. I talked to the lady at the office about it and (quoting from that last post I linked to. ) “She mentioned that his reasoning didnít make sense to her. ” So I started thinking about it and:
“He was always like that, justifying things to himself and everyone else. And if for some reason he didnít want to go to the hearing, he would come up with some reason to justify it to himself and everyone else. And if it didnít make sense to other people that means that he was trying to justify something to himself.
So I asked a few other questions (No, they canít tell me how he is doing in jail.) But then I asked about sexual offender counseling, because back in the early 90ís that wasnít really talked about. I was wondering if heíd probably not have to do it since the judge hadnít ordered it. She said that the Parole board can order it as a condition of release, and probably had. (Iím guessing that must be pretty standard now).
So then I got to thinking, he couldnít complete sexual rehabilitation if he tried. He might (although it would be very hard on his pride) try, thinking that he could pull the wool over their eyes like he always tried to do with everyone, but he would never be able to do it – heíd not be able to really admit he did it, that he did something wrong, etc. His personality wouldnít allow him. And the idea did occur to me – what if that is why he waved his hearing?”
So then last year, (apparently I was bad and didn’t blog about it, I thought I did for sure though, but anyway), he waved his hearing before they even scheduled it. I called to find out what was going on, and the woman working there (different one this time) was happy to help me out and we talked for a while. It was a actually a blow though, because I found out his reason for waving the hearing :Not Guilty.
Actually, that might have been why I didn’t blog about it when it happened, that was kind of a double blow. Not only did he not admit it at the trial, but he is still telling everyone that he didn’t do it, and therefore going to the parole board hearing isn’t even worth it, because he is Not Guilty.
So this year, again, I get a letter saying that he waved the hearing. Called up the lady, again he is Not Guilty.
A little sad and sick this year, but nothing like last. Talked a little numbers with her, if he keeps passing on his hearings he’ll “complete” this sentence in 2011. Then 5 years before he comes up for parole on the second sentence. So, if in 2016 he wants he can start going to parole hearings again. I think he’ll probably keep waving hearings until 2011, in 2016 who knows what he’ll do. If he doesn’t get paroled early, he’ll be out around 2025.
I bet he will wave the next two years, but even so, we are coming up on a 5 year period when I don’t have to worry about him getting paroled.
As I said in the second post I linked to, this is the letter I’d like to send:
Dear Parole Board –
Pass on the message to Asshole that his natural death can happen at any time now. Barring that, just lock him up and throw away the key. Donít bother with any parole hearings, society is better off without him.